Visiting Nathan on a Saturday evening I stayed for dinner and the night as I would quite often do. After dinner we ended up browsing his music collection. Nathan was quieter than usual; apparently something was on his mind. With a serious look in his eyes he suddenly asked; “Kevin, will you be my boyfriend?” Startled I knocked over his glass of wine all over the computerdesk. That was certainly unexpected. Nobody ever actually asked me this question since primary school.

Quickly we moved the keyboard from the growing puddle of red wine. Stains were all over the wallpaper and it was dripping down onto the carpet. Mopping up what we could I gathered my thoughts and replied “uhm, let me think about that”. Apparently this was very serious to Nathan and I didn’t want to say anything rash. Though he was trying to hide it his disappointment was obvious. He could’ve asked me to leave right there and then but despite my answer he didn’t. The rest of the evening passed quite uneventful and we headed for bed early. No sex that night..

The next day at work I had the opportunity to think it over. On Sundays I was the only person working in the entire warehouse for most of the day and having done the job for a few years I was able to do it on automatic pilot. The thought of being official boyfriends didn’t really occur to me up till now. Certainly Nathan was special to me and every time I looked forward to be with him. The more I thought about it the more I realized I was a fool for not immediately saying yes. Here’s a cute boy who’s sweet and obviously cares a lot about me. I made my decision and suddenly hated being trapped at work with no opportunity to tell him. What if he changed his mind?

No time to waste, I rushed home as soon as possible, hoping he’d be online. In retrospect I could’ve called but I didn’t really know how to explain my decision. Coming home I throwed my bag in a corner and immediately logged in invisible. I really didn’t want to be bothered by anyone else with their nonsense right now. Thank god, he was online. Not wasting much time I apologized and told him in a few lines I’d love to be his boyfriend. Incredulous Nathan didn’t really believe me at first. Perhaps he thought I was just saying it to keep him around? But I managed to convince him, I really wanted to be his boyfriend. Next time we saw eachother I was not just happy to see Nathan but more even so to be with my boyfriend..

Gradually over the next few weeks Nathan visited more and more often to stay for one or two nights. Summer vacation had arrived and we finally had some time to spend together. Pretty much the only reason for him to return was to feed his kitten. The poor thing must’ve felt quite lonely during that time.

Often we’d cook and eat dinner together. I never expected Nathan to become vegetarian like myself at the time. He clearly didn’t share my point of view but nevertheless it was really considerate of him. Not to mention the impression those flowers littered in my apartment left me. How much I loved those evenings cuddled together watching movies. Afterwards falling asleep only to wake up in the comforting warmth of each others presence the next morning.

During the day we would often hang around in the lunch room we first met. With some money to spare we decided to go shopping for new clothes. More familiar in the city I showed Nathan some stores I liked. In retrospect I probably spent way too much on clothing back then. Fortunately our taste in clothing was the same. Not that it really mattered what Nathan was wearing, pretty much anything looked good on him.

Agreeing on some trendy clothes Nathan left for the changing rooms leaving me to wait in the corridor. I smiled. Unknown to him Nathan had left the curtain slightly open. Taking a step to the right I just caught a look of him changing into another pair of pants. What a sight. Those tight, brightly coloured undies which I had come to love so much. Nathan still didn’t realize I was watching. A quick look around assured me no one was paying attention. I quickly slipped into the change room. “What took you so long” Nathan whispered. The cheeky bastard did it on purpose!

Our lips quickly locked together, hands roaming around. “Wait, what are you doing”, crossed my mind as he pushed me down. With my eyes on the same level as the bulge in his crotch I got his intentions. Happy to oblige I slid the waistband down. Nathan couldn’t help letting a small sigh escape. God I certainly hope nobody saw the pair of feet showing under the curtain. We probably made way too much noise and stayed away for a suspicious long time. Slightly out of breath and very glad no one came to check up on us we headed for the register. Wait, did that guy just knowingly smile at us or was my conscience playing tricks on me?

Ah! This looks like a great place to hid-* Ew ew ew eeeeeeewww! What an obnoxious twat! I can’t believe it! First the porn. Now these things! Nhgn… It’s hard to resist the urge to snoop around right now. Luckily for him, the sound of his key-chain coming out of his pocket warned me of his presence. He’s coming!

Hehehehe- I’m so horrible. Now all I have to do is to remain completely quiet or my plan will fail! I hate to wait. Though at least the waiting gave me some time to think. We have been seeing each other more and more over the last few weeks. Guess what- He’s a vegetarian. Not really my thing, still- I stopped eating meat out of respect for him. I never knew tofu tastes so much like meat.

You know. A few days it bugged me a bit when he said, -probably as a joke-, that he wants a threesome before he turns thirty. Else he said he wouldn’t feel like he’d had ‘lived’. I told him that I could understand- But I couldn’t. Perhaps we’re not really boyfriend-material. Then again, maybe he just doesn’t realise that we could be.

That’s why I’m at his apartment today- under-cover. To show him that we could be. Hehehe- I’m so devious. I made a real mess  in his vacant home. Roses and rosebuds are spread around everywhere, and I do mean -everywhere-. That’s what you get for giving a stranger your key. The first part of my devilish scheme complete! I wasn’t sure when he’d be home, so I looked for a hiding spot in his bedroom. I didn’t want him to see me. That’s when I almost tripped over them.

Are they used? They look used. Jegh. I’m not gonna touch them. And you know what one of the boxes said? Before you spank-er cover your wank-er. With a short click the front-door of Kevins apartment unlocked while I quickly hid myself. I could hear him gasp as he walked into his living room. “Nathan?” I tried not to breath as I heard my name , “What’s going on? Are you here?”. Kevins voice was far away, the sucker has no idea I’m in his bedroom right now.

Bbvvvvtt…. Bbvvvttt… Kevin is calling me. That’s my queue! Sneaking up to Kevin from behind was easier than counting to one. A pounce and a loud shriek later, Kevin found me on top of him. Seeing his surprised face was worth the hours of boredom. “Nathe?!!? ..T..Thank y-*”. He got interrupted by a brief kiss. “I like you a lot.” I whispered before I took him to the bedroom and um.. spanked-er. And that wasn’t even part of my plan, the box gave me the idea.

I just hope we’re not just fucking for fun. ..I want him.

..all to my self.

Much to my regret we didn’t get a chance to talk very much after our evening together. Life was pretty hectic juggling an internship and a parttime job during the weekend. It wasn’t until Saturday before we caught eachother online again. Like deep down we both already knew we’d be together for years we chatted for hours and hours, talking about the food and music we liked and places in the world we’d like to go and visit together.
Not satisfied with a mere chat Nathan eventually suggested I’d come over and visit him. It was already close to midnight but eager at the opportunity to see his sweet face again I asked for his address and quickly took my bike.

Already dark I headed for the suburbs with a small map in my hand. “Shit, I don’t know this part of town. Am I supposed to go a bit further or take a left here?” Everything looks different in the dark. As I went in circles it became later and later. My cell phone rang, Nathan called to ask what was taking me so long. Balancing with the cell in one hand and my map in the other I tried to explain where I was.

There! After almost giving up I finally recognized the overpass he mentioned. And here is the gas station I’m supposed to go left at. This can’t be true; all the houses look the same! I called Nathan again, he laughed and told me to look for him as he went outside. Finally I recognized his shape in the distance under the street lamps. I hurried towards him and hugged. As I left my bike locked to the street light we went inside. His apartment was certainly a lot bigger than mine! He didn’t have a lot of furniture but as I was greeted by a very curious and adorable kitten and in the warmth of Nathan’s presence I felt right at home.

Offering me a drink to break the ice we talked while I played with the very appropriately named black and white Amore. Unable to keep our eyes from each other we soon just fell silent. Fortunately it was already late and time was a good excuse to head for the bedroom. No words were necessary; this was what we both wanted.

Undressing Nathan I marveled at the body he offered me. This was the first time I really got to take a look instead of just peeking. Stroking his hair I leaned in closer for a kiss. Moving my hands down over his slender and smooth chest I found the waistband of his tight underwear. Slowly pulling it down I revealed his rock hard cock. Not able to resist the temptation I elicited a gasp from Nathan with a long lick. As he returned the favor I sighed. Taking the initiative I pushed him backwards and pulled his legs in the air. A surprised Nathan quickly melted in my arms. Completely satisfied we soon fell asleep cuddled together.

I found myself standing naked, staring before his steaming bathroom. I admired Kevin’s body. He has an amazing cock, and nipples that are made to be licked. ‘Decided to come along after all?’ He pulled me closer. I could feel his warm body press against mine. Slowly he started to soap up my body. Specifically my dick. I can’t deny I didn’t enjoy it, but on our first date? ‘I..I.. couldn’t possibly’. Shh. He got down on his knees. Soon I forgot my good intentions. ‘N..Nathan! S.. Stop!’ I didn’t. ‘Uff..’ He gasped for air before being pushed down again.

Ahnng ..Shit! Those were my good sheets. Damn, it’s been over a week since I’d last seen Kevin. The memories of his dick flashing before me won’t seem to stop. How could he be so .. -self centered ..?!  He was obviously just interested in a quickie. I won’t let myself get too worked up about him.

‘You’re so cute.’  he whispered in my ears. I can still feel his tight embrace while his lips softly press against the back of my head. I’d never go back to casual sex, would I? God I’m so full of shit. I want him. Badly. It’s not my intentions I’m worried about. Something else is tormenting me.

Did I make a mistake by staying in this dump? Every now and then these thoughts crossed my mind. Kevin’s apartment was small and cozy. Mine was desolated. I have nothing left. Nothing at all. Fuck all this shit I’ve gotten myself into. It’s the silence that’s killing me. Seven days and I’ve heard nothing from him.

His enchanting smile follows me everywhere. The cocky attitude he’s not even aware off. There’s something about him that makes him stand out of the crowd. The way we met, it’s all so fucking unbelievable. I can’t help it anymore.

I want to see him again. And soon.

Hurrying I jumped onboard the morning train and looked for a seat. Just in time, I had to leave in way too much of a hurry. Not to mention having to leave Nathan. Ugh, I’m so tired. The few hours of sleep cuddled together weren’t nearly enough. My sleepy image reflected in the window. Thinking back to Nathan’s cheerful attitude I smiled.

It was impossible to accomplish anything on my internship. A day seemed to stretch into a week. I was more occupied escaping the questioning look of my advisor instead of actually getting something useful done. Thankfully I had plenty of excuses to be anywhere except at my desk. Walking through random corridors my mind kept wandering off to last night, I already missed him.

At last I was free to go from a very unproductive day. Coming home I found the front door locked. Good, at least I wasn’t robbed. I kind of hoped Nathan would be waiting for me but of course I knew he had to leave. Everything still seemed to be where it belonged. Everything, except for the dishes. I never got around cleaning them the night before but here they were clean and neatly stacked to dry. And he also left me a note. I read it a dozen times. Or well one part in particular “I should’ve joined you in the shower”. I didn’t expect him to seriously consider my offer. It left me with a warm and fuzzy feeling inside as I kept thinking about what could’ve happened.

Rays of sunlight flicker through the window blinds. Kevin was already awake. Wait. Is he staring at me? He jumped out of bed and kissed me on my lips the moment I realised he was. He certainly wasn’t prude or concerned about what would be a proper thing to do for that matter. Right enfront of me he pulled down his boxers. ‘Gonna take a shower, but you can stay in bed.. if you want.’ That cheeky bastard. He gave me such a huge boner. I was barely able to hide it underneath the sheets.

Showering together is no fun without at least a little touching. Should I?  No, I thought. I don’t believe in loveless sex. Then again, would it be loveless sex? It felt like butterflies and hummingbirds were darting in my belly. I’d better just get up and get dressed. But before I could get up, Kevin stepped out of the steamy bathroom.

Keys?! He’s gonna give me his keys?! What if I was a serial killer about to murder more than thirty guys in less than thirty days, only to violate their bodies to stimulate some sick sexual urge? ‘No I couldn’t possibly..’, I objected. ‘Nonsense!’ He said, ‘just bring it back later.’ And just like that he left. Needless to say, I never did return that key.

I made myself a warm cup of tea and sat down enfront of his computer. Why what have we here? …Porn?! Holy shit! Was he jerking off the night before? I wasn’t snooping, honestly! What’s this? Locker-room gangbangs? I started snickering. That idiot, who forgets these kinds of things?! I closed the files. Perhaps I’ll tell him eventually that I’ve found his private collection. But for now I’ll pretend it didn’t happen. To spare him the embarrassment when he’d find out his computer was full of porn on our first date.

I left him a note and left.

The entire week my mind was occupied with the thought of having Nathan over at my place. When finally the much anticipated weekend arrived and I got home from a long day there wasn’t much time left to get everything somewhat acceptable. Knowing how hard my dead-end street can be to find in the inner city maze we agreed to meet at a more convenient spot just a block away. “10 minutes before 7, hopefully I’ll have enough time to take a quick shower before he arrives”. I didn’t even notice the phone ringing the first time. Of course Nathan turned up early and tried to call for me to pick him up.. Well, so much for good second impressions.

Once we entered my small apartment and his initial curiosity was satisfied we settled on the lounge couch. While chatting I prepared dinner and picked one of my favourite movies to watch while enjoying the meal. As the evening with us cuddled up together progressed, much to my regret, I noticed it becoming later. Carefully avoiding the subject I slyly hoped to postpone the inevitable farewell. Success! When Nathan finally realized the last bus had already left I of course casually offered him to stay for the night. Sensing his discomfort I quickly added the promise to behave myself.

Morning came way too soon, I had to leave early. With a smile I thought back to last night and had to make sure it was no dream. Looking at the cutie next to me I just couldn’t bring myself to ask him to leave. Telling he could return it next time, I quickly decided to give him my key before leaving in a hurry. This was certainly a first for me but perhaps deep down I already knew he’d never have to return it?

The next couple of days passed by like dark clouds at night. It’s not until next friday till I’ll hear his cocky remarks again. I hate waiting.

That reminds me. I also hate being late. That’s why I got at the university beforehand. He’s supposed to pick me up here somewhere. But the deadening effect of waiting got a hold of me. He’s late! I didn’t care anymore when I saw the handsome devil, though I was being reluctant to admit so at the time.

Kevin’s appartement was smaller than mine, even the bedroom I peeked in. He’d put on some music while my sweet cheeks found the couch. Surrounded by yellow walls. His beautiful smile put my mind to ease. We started chatting.

The aroma of fried mushrooms filled the appartement. After putting on the vision of escaflowne, a movie, Kevin walked out of the kitchen holding two plates with risotto. I’m impressed. This is the best risotto I have had in years. His risotto together with the wine I brought made love to my taste buds.

Discretely he shuffles towards me. Just an inch. I noticed, of course, but represented myself fictitiously in play as if I didn’t notice and continued eating with a smirk on my face. After three more shuffles he just bumped into me. Unable to tolerate anymore delay I took his arm and placed it around my shoulder. We both smiled timidly and snuggled a bit. It didn’t take long after that before I ended up laying in his arms on the couch.

The tv screen turned black. The movie ended. We didn’t care. “You’re so cute..” he whispered in my ears. I felt a soft kiss on my head. He was a bit embarrassed when I asked what was poking me so firmly against my back. But the kiss I gave him in return released him from his worries again.

The evening had come to an end, time flew like April breezes. I’ve missed my last bus. God, I hate public transport. “Nathan?” Kevin said. “You could sleep over for the night, if you want too” he offered. “I’ll be good” he added. All of my defenses told me to say no. Instead I took a chance. I told him that I’d like to stay with him. I trusted him. Then without warning he rashly ripped of my clothes, hurled me on the bed, and started fucking me hard …Heh, You wish.

The next morning I awoke with him next to me, still sleeping.

…

Entering on a particular windy, rainy and gloomy thursday morning, my eyes searched the lunchroom for a place to sit. For some reason the boy in the corner overlooking the open square through the large viewing windows caught my eye.  Walking closer, “He looks cute!” runs through my mind. Quite unusual for me I decided to take a bold chance and invited myself to his table. My sudden interruption startled him and after introducing ourselves an awkward shyness followed. Yet, once we started talking about our lives the hours passed like one of the fleeting leaves in the gusts of wind around the high flat buildings. All too sudden Nathan had to leave and catch a train. Of course we exchanged contact info and I offered to walk him to the station. During the short walk Nathan seemed to be somewhere else with his mind and disappointed I misinterpreted his sudden silence as rejection. Perhaps I’d been a bit too assertive? Waving him goodbye I kept thinking to myself I’ll probably never see him again. The wind instantly felt a bit colder and the following day my feeling was confirmed with a deafening silence from Nathan.

Much to my surprise a few days later he did eventually show up on MSN. Instantly we started chatting like we’d known each other for a long time already. One thing led to another and much to my astonishment we agreed to meet again, at my place this time. I’d use the opportunity to cook and for a moment I considered preparing an extravagant meal in an effort to impress him. Not being the best cook in the world I wasn’t sure I’d be able to pull it off and it just had to be perfect so I decided to take a safe bet and cook one of my favourite meals..